I've had several crying spells today. It was something about Sunday. I have this idea of going to worship service on Sunday with my husband. We're driving in the car together. We're driving home together. It's something about that image that I am in love with. Driving home today to an empty house AGAIN was a big emotional trigger for me.
I've been kind of in a funk all day. Neti could hear it in my voice. I wonder if I was married to the ONE would I truly be happy the way I imagine I would be. I was happy a long time ago. I was in a relationship. I was in love. I was so happy. I miss it so much.
I even went and looked at HIS Facebook page and just browsed through his pictures. That's the past. I need to look toward the future